putting the ball in His court.

It's been a while since I wrote. I've been journalling more than writing on here. But I figured I would include an excerpt from an email I recently wrote. About two weeks ago, I played the best tennis of my life. (that may sound boastful, but trust me- it was totally Him). My partner, Courtney and I, won the ITA Regionals. Many people didn't understand the significance of it- but oh goodness, there were so many different elements included... and I don't have time to expound on them all. But here is just a taste:

"This has been one of the biggest rollercoasters of my life (playing tennis at IWU). There have been so many ups and downs. There have been so many lessons that He has taught me through it. The Lord has been so faithful, but has also required so much of me... which I have learned is only possible when I completely surrender every aspect of life to Him. So I was just incredibly overwhelmed when we won that last point of the championship. Literally, I just burst into tears. This tournament was probably the first time I have ever just completely let go, and played for His glory. And regardless of the win (even though it was spectacular), it was amazing just to feel used by Him and play to the absolute best of the abilities He has given me. To hold the outcome of the match loosely, and enjoy each moment of the match. It is quite the view from this mountaintop! :) I'm still kind of speechless- that this is where He has brought me. I'm sure my mom has told you some of the struggles over the years... and this was basically His answer/reason for every single one. And only He knows the true struggle of the journey it was for me, and how much I had to depend on Him.
God is big, faithful, and good- that basically sums it up."

here is a list of some of the elements:
.losing last year in the finals
.playing #3 for a fourth year
.never having my own time to shine
.living under my brothers' shadow
.my shoulder problems
.not sharing last year with D
.playing for ONLY His glory
.being a senior/captain/chaplain
.having my parents both there
.full support of my coaches
.playing with my partner

obviously some of those are positive, and some negative... but overall- God just let me LOVE Him through that day. He is so faithful.

tonight, I again used my testimony from D & I's relationship to talk with one of the girls. it always seems like God parallels that story with theirs. I am just in awe of His plan for our relationship. We struggled so much in the beginning, trying to decide if we should date, whether or not it was within His will. I am absolutely amazed at His sovereignty and faithfulness. I am so thankful for D, and for what God taught me through Him.