frustration explodes

How long will it take for you to understand how much you frustrate me? how long before you decide whether you really want to love me? how long will it take for you to realize how much you hurt me when you don't give me the light of day? I can't trust myself. I want you, but you don't want me. By the time you do, then I won't want you. It's happened before. Why can't we work this out? Why can't we just fall in love and get it over with?
I'm waiting, selfishly, to be wanted.
Why can't I be sensible and patient?
Why can't I be smart enough to realize that this shouldn't work?
Why can't I get over you?

whoo hoo, hooray...

My brother's engaged! yay rah! This was one heck of a Christmas break. I cannot tell you how much fun it is to watch people in love. most of my friends want to kill me because of how excited I am about Joel and Melissa's engagement. but honestly, who wouldn't be ecstatic about their sibling finally meeting the person of their dreams?

sorry girls, but love rules. :)