oh where do i begin?
It's been about a month since my last post. I feel very behind on updating about where I am at in life. I, first of all, want to express just how good the Lord is. He is working in mighty ways. It's been a really hard week, incredibly hard week, for the women in my life. Emotions have been running so high, and for good reason. It has been incredible to see how the Lord moves and orchestrates each of those events, and allows each of us to be in the right place for each other.
I can't really describe what I am feeling right now, besides an overwhelming joy in my life.
I can't help it.
I closed a door a while ago, and I can't help but feel liberated. I feel free, and so incredibly excited about what is next. I am currently battling a relatively vicious cold, but still, I feel amazing. I am FREE. Can I explain what that means? Absolutely not. But my heart is free from the bondage, from the pain, from the past. I didn't even realize that I started writing about this joy in my last entry. How blessed am I that I have felt this intense joy for over a month?
It's been a long week. I am so blessed by the women in my life, and so thankful that I am living with the girls that I am. We have been through a lot together, and it amazes me how close we can become in such a short time. My heart has just been breaking repeatedly for those around me. Life can be such a struggle. I am so grateful that I can be used as a pillar of strength, or arms of compassion. I am so blessed that the Lord has brought me this far. I almost forget what it's like to be in a relationship, and have to consistently be aware of another person (which sounds far more selfish than I mean it to). I am, however, so thankful that I am single right now, in this moment. I wouldn't trade this time, this phase, these moments for anything. . . and I LOVE that I can say that, and mean it wholeheartedly.
I have heard over and over again, about how God always puts you in a place where you are finally content- and then brings that special someone into your life. But for me? Now that I am actually there? I really wasn't sure if I would ever "make it" to this moment- and right now, I don't want it to end.
