i think i miss what i thought we would be.
i guess that quote sums up my though processes at the moment. i miss looking at someone and seeing a future. i miss the high hopes. i miss my idea of him. i miss my idea of "us." i miss the relationship process, the growing and investing. not so much him, but what he represented.
but i guess the hardest part is just being me. knowing me, all of imperfections and burdens, and hoping that i will be good enough someday for someone. knowing all of my failures and my faults, and still finding confidence. and realizing that God is the only one who can bring out the best in me. He is the only aspect of my life I can take pride in. Not my faith, but His mercy. that it's not another person, whether that be a friend, family, or spouse that makes me better. instead it is the grace of God. the blessing of the Holy Spirit, that makes me the best person that i can be.
