His banner over me is love.

I'm part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit power.

The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line.
I am a disciple of His. I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure.

I'm finished with low living, sight-walking, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, and dwarfed goals.

I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded.

I now live by faith, lean on his presence, walk by patience, lift by prayer and labor by power.

My faith is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven. My road is narrow, my companions few, my guide reliable, my mission clear.

I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, or delayed.

I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, or negotiate at the table of the enemy.

I won't give up, shut up, let up until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, preached up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus.

I must go until he comes, give till I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me.

And when He comes for his own, He will have no problems recognizing me.

My banner will be clear.

the cornmaze of life

hello hello from the bunk in 108! it's a lazy day today. i spent three hours outside just enjoying the breeze and beautiful sunshine. Last night F and i went to a Pacer's game downtown, then went back and spent the night at my house. A and K (my spring break buddies) came over as well. i really enjoyed just being able to sit in my house and talk. it was good to catch up and hear how the ol' burg is holding up without the class of 05.

this morning F and i left around 10 30 from my house. i hope all of you were able to go outside at some point today, it honestly was the prettiest day i've experienced in a while. the breeze was crisp, the sun was warm, and the cornfields were incredible. i know, how indiana-hick of me. i was talking to F about how much I love cornfields... they make me feel so content, so peaceful, so..at home.

the trees are turning colors again. what a glorious sight! there is a certain satisfaction i get from knowing i am watching the leaves turn again. it makes me look back and thank God for another year of life and all of the blessings He's bestowed upon me. winding through the back roads by my house, driving through the natural tunnel of the trees, its amazing how comfortable I can become. i love trees!

nature is just too cool.

blue-eyed boy meets a brown-eyed girl: the sweetest thing.
U2 is really good by the way.

dorm life explored

sorry... i know its been way too long.

college is here. its fun. IWU is amazing.

I can't believe how faithful God is in answering prayers. Everything that I have needed, or wanted for that matter, has been provided. The university is focused on Christ, not on wordly success... that's probably the biggest answered prayer and relief. God is so real, and so alive!!!

tennis is going really well, and is almost over. this weekend is the conference tourney, so that's exciting. It's definetely been odd stepping onto a team this successful. It's odd to be at the bottom of the totem pole again, to have to start from scratch. my shoulder has been bothering me, but i think i've used it too much as an excuse. i'm ashamed to have to say that. i have a serious lack of confidence in myself and tried to excuse that with this shoulder thing. how pathetic!? the girls are all amazing, i'm definetely learning a lot from each of them. i love the difference in our lives and what we each bring to the court.

classes are going well. its amazing how many of them are about Christianity and the Bible. Old Testament and Psych are my favorites. Psychology is becoming more and more interesting, so thats a plus! :) Old Testament is just awesome because it forces me to read and discuss the "boring part" of the Bible. God is so big, and so amazing.

living in a dorm is fun. that is for sure. i love interacting and spending time with all my suitemates. there is quite a variety!!! F (my roommate) and i got along well from the start. I'm very grateful that we're rooming together. My dorm itself is fun. Its taken a while to get to know people, but slowly and surely I'm getting there. I love dorm life, getting used to being a room with someone else, and having my own schedule. i can't that i've mastered time management, but it's fun learning it... (at least for me...wink). It's different, but in a place like IWU, its too nice to complain about! :)

I miss my family. i just saw my grandparents for the first time in a month this past week. I miss them so much! I love them, just talking to them and with them. i can't believe its been a month since i've seen J & M...and i won't see them until thanksgiving. i hate that fact. i am so anxious to see them. i still can't believe theyre married. being such a family-person, its hard to be away from home. but again, God has provided.

I miss D. long distance relationships aren't fun. but i'm glad i'm in it. i'm learning a lot about patience...and diction. lol. I can't get over how amazing he is. as much as i miss him though, i think i am really starting to appreciate all of the things i'm being forced to learn. especially communication wise. Again, God is good and sovereign (He did create Verizon...).

I miss my girls. SO BAD. S, K, A, K (and then there's N...lol). it's hard to be away from them. experiencing all of this new stuff and not sharing it with them is so tough. so not fun. i want to be able to be there for them, in their celebration and tears. i'm changing, they're changing, and i'm scared that I can't keep up. waiting until thanksgiving? thats going to be torture.

my Bible has become much more imporant to me. i dont say that to be pompous or stuck up...but it truly has become much more valued. part of that is forced, since i have to reference it in class, but also when i have those moments of desparation. God is so good, so faithful, and so honest. He cares for my heart and my every need. He is so good. Life is so good. I am so blessed.