welcome to my world.

I have spent the rest of my morning updating my blog with a new format and name. I wanted to escape the academic setting for a while, and boy did I ever. Every now and then I just need to rearrange things, and today I picked my blog. Organizing helps me de-stress and relax. I have been debating putting my blog site on my facebook website for the past six months. There are several reasons, but mostly because it is my heart on the screen- so personal and so raw.

I'm still not sure if I want to just open my heart to everyone who knows me. I'm also self-conscious of what people will think. I'm not sure I want to hear their opinions or see their disapproval. But I ran into S, and talked to her for a while about where she is at in life and what has happened recently in her life, and she encouraged me to catch up on her blog. And her honesty and openness on her site was astounding. So maybe it's time for me to jump on board?

Going through all of those entries was quite the task. I started writing it my senior year of high school, and there are several big gaps between entries. People might think that some of the past entries are too personal, or that they should be taken down. But they are part of my journey, they have had a direct impact on who I am today. I have been striving lately to focus on being authentic- which can be so very hard. But being authentic means being honest about the good and the bad.

As a Christian, I want people to see my imperfections just as much as my strengths- so they can see Christ through me. So here it is. Here is me. Here is me being authentic and real. Here is a glimpse of who I truly am, problems and all. This blog includes some of my favorite memories, as well as some of my toughest.

If you want to ask me questions, feel free. If you are surprised by some of what you read, hopefully God's grace will overwhelm my imperfections. It's my senior year. I'm leaving this setting in about 6 months. Then a new journey will begin. Until then? Hopefully I can stay focused, and be able to accomplish all that He asks of me.