tangles.

so tired. so tired of gossip.
i know that i am guilty of it myself- it's so easy to fall into the trap. but until i take a stand against it, and step up, no one is going to help me out. i want to get through problems, work through them, learn from them. but its not helping if i am just going to the next person and tell them my problems. they have no control of the situation, and i am constantly using it as a "relief source." the more people i tell, the better i feel about it. however, i have a biased mindset. i know that i present the information in support of my opinion- regardless of how objective i try to be. i try and tell myself that i am trying to get other people's opinion, when in reality i just make mine even more harsh. i feel justified by it. how horrible is that? since when is that a healthy way to work through problems. i am tired of gossip, but i rarely completely shut my mouth. i need help to stop. i'm seeing the ramifications of gossip all around me, and i don't want to hurt anyone.