so its been a long weekend.
not a big deal, those occur every now and then.
but several things happened, all in one day... just made it tough to get through.
But the Lord provided. as always.
a few key conversations. with a few spectacular people.
i figured i would share part of a prayer i ended up writing down, towards the end of the day.
-- ok. so i think i got the message today. be content and trust that You are in control. i've been saying that i know that life will get better, and that i will wait for a guy to be the one to take the initiative. i wanted to know for certain that it was You leading him to me, not me leading him on. goodness, i've been praying that You would let a guy pursue me and that i would wait for that to happen... and yet i have been so anxious lately. disappointed when things don't turn out the way i want them to. i go out of my way to say hi or at least be "around." obviously someone is not pursuing me, and up until tonight i did not realize that it might be You answering that prayer. i haven't been seeking You like i was. i'm not waiting for Your plan, and getting frustrated when You don't follow mine.
thank You for protecting me. thank You for letting me grow, on my own, without a distraction. or at least thank You for letting me realize that i need to grow on my own...without any distractions. i'm trusting You to prepare me for when i am ready. i've tried to convince You that i am, but You know my heart. so now, i know that i am ready to trust You again. i know that i'm ready to let You captivate my thoughts. let me follow Your lead. let me be content. let me be fully submerged in You. --
it's interesting. being in this position. i'm ready for something else. i'm ready to do something, and frustrated that i am just sitting around. so now i need to take this time, when God is allowing my heart to "rest"... to actually slow down and do just that. Rest in Him. Delight in Him. Be fully content and at peace with Now.
let the week begin.
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